I have been thinking a lot lately, but not posting. Now that I have had some time to think, I am ready to post again.
Just when things were sorted and we had settled in, our live was tossed around. Since October 18th, we no longer have the twins. They went back to live with their grandma and grandpa. They missed them and wanted them back. Who am I to fight with something I don’t understand, so I just went with it. I needed time to think about what had happened. I just did not understand how one day they wanted us to adopt and then a couple days later they took them back. It all boils down to drama. No that I have had some time, I do not miss the drama.
Pete and I have made many exceptions to our life in the past and have opened our home to friends and family many times. But now, we are ready to close that door. We will keep giving to those who need us, but we hope that we are not taken advantage of us again. Yes, taken advantage of. It was a learning experience. We proved that we are great parents, friends and a great couple. I am so proud of my husband and family. The stepped up and took life on. I could not have asked for more. We had fun while it lasted and do not regret anything.
I am sad that they are gone and feel a huge loss. They broke my heart. Mostly I am hurt. I think it opened my eyes. I wish to part ways. I could not possibly go thru that again. I feel no need to be a part of their lives now, I am scarred. They have a strong friend base and they do not really need us. We did what we could and it did not work out. I do not wish them ill, but rather wish them to find peace. They have a lot of sole searching to do.
So I have a pretty big house now. 3 bedrooms and an office/studio.
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