Cyber Monday! No, I am not shopping online. I did plenty of shopping over the weekend on gifts. I did not get up early to brave the crowds. I got out in the drift about 9am and almost completed my shopping in a few shops. This will be a small Christmas this year, but we don't really need anything. Really all I have left to do is make the gifts I am giving and some stocking stuffers shopping in a couple of weeks.
My tree is up and decor all over the house. Just a few bushes to drape lights over and hang the wreaths. I even have some gifts wrapped. I am on a ball.
Now off to work on Christmas cards.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Soon to be Thanksgiving
The excitement is rising! The holiday's are approaching...The commercials are calling me...the ads are floating around the Internet early with the Black Friday ads...I won't shop this year, but I might venture out to feel the rush of the crowds. I have been thinking up dishes for over a week now and I cannot wait to shop for the ingredients...the turkey arrived today and is thawing in the front seat of the car...the recycle bags are in the back seat ready to be filled... The countdown for Thanksgiving has started. 16 more work hours till my holiday begins...I plan on cooking a small spread that will last a couple of days. Turkey and Swiss sandwiches...YUM I am already dreaming of the leftovers. The family is small now so there more then likely will not be guests, but I will be dragging out my holiday tubs and adorning the house with Christmas decor.
I am Thankful that Dad had his surgery and has his health, Thankful that we have the beautiful home and vehicles that take us to and fro. The lake house that the Robert's boys are able to escape to, and the projects that keep them together as a family. I am thankful for each one of us having a job, they are far and few between for some families. I am thankful for my beautiful daughter and her silly boyfriend that helps us whenever he can. I am thankful for my animals that love me unconditionally and are great bed-hog-cuddlers. I am thankful to my best friend that will be the first to read this. Tamara and I were cut from the same fine linen. And I am thankful to all of my other friends that laugh, love, cry and craft with me. I am blessed and hope to spread blessings.
I am Thankful that Dad had his surgery and has his health, Thankful that we have the beautiful home and vehicles that take us to and fro. The lake house that the Robert's boys are able to escape to, and the projects that keep them together as a family. I am thankful for each one of us having a job, they are far and few between for some families. I am thankful for my beautiful daughter and her silly boyfriend that helps us whenever he can. I am thankful for my animals that love me unconditionally and are great bed-hog-cuddlers. I am thankful to my best friend that will be the first to read this. Tamara and I were cut from the same fine linen. And I am thankful to all of my other friends that laugh, love, cry and craft with me. I am blessed and hope to spread blessings.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Dirty Pool
Some weeks are just chitty from the start. Normal Monday cascades into the "work week from hell", but is not just limited to work. Personal life and activities spiral down also. Well, this has been one of those weeks and it is only Thursday. Pray tell, what will the weekend bring?
I have the Holiday Blues, missing my mom dearly, aunts and good ole' time family functions. Things just are not the same. Large family turned tiny and lonely. Money can always be an issue if I let it bother me, but holidays are approaching and that is bothersome. And last but not least, work blues. Firing a coworker almost weekly, computers that refuse to cooperate and the daily grind. My father keeps his chit up and my aunt tells me to drop him.
I have been living in a false light lately, trying to streamline and simplify to gain happiness...and free time. So far, is it working? Not only no, but hell no. I actually thought, until today, that things in life were great and I was on the upside of the hill. I have been through so much, that I could not be surprised by things at this point. That is a stupid, stupid thing to think.
Since 1994 it has been a long journey for Pete and I. It sure was bumpy in the first couple of years. I came to terms with our relationship and how I would tuck that sorrow away. He was a stupid boy and did stupid things, so did I. I forgave, did not forget. That kind of past needs to be my reminder to be that better person in life. It has been my fuel. Little reminders here and there put me in prospective that life cannot and will not be perfect.
I could not let one person keep me upset, so I did what I had to do and it was awful. I was nasty, rude, said horrible things that I knew would sting, just so she would leave me alone. I do not have to be friends with everyone. If I am nice they take advantage of me. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer...bull chit. My plan was to finally be gross and then that will be it. Or so I hope.
But a huge chunk of my ass was taken out last night! Holy crap did it hit the fan. Another secret surfaced out of the clear freakin' blue. My head is still spinning from that chit bomb. I do not know how to process that information. Do I tuck it away and use it a Diesel fuel? Or did water just put my fire out?
I feel so damaged. Just when the hurt doesn't feel quite that bad, I now feel that old wound. Thanks for throwing Salt in it Pete.
I don't want to go home. But I do want to crawl into my bed. 5 hours of sleep is not helping this situation. So here is my plan. I will go home and sleep and take tomorrow as another day. Ugg
I have the Holiday Blues, missing my mom dearly, aunts and good ole' time family functions. Things just are not the same. Large family turned tiny and lonely. Money can always be an issue if I let it bother me, but holidays are approaching and that is bothersome. And last but not least, work blues. Firing a coworker almost weekly, computers that refuse to cooperate and the daily grind. My father keeps his chit up and my aunt tells me to drop him.
I have been living in a false light lately, trying to streamline and simplify to gain happiness...and free time. So far, is it working? Not only no, but hell no. I actually thought, until today, that things in life were great and I was on the upside of the hill. I have been through so much, that I could not be surprised by things at this point. That is a stupid, stupid thing to think.
Since 1994 it has been a long journey for Pete and I. It sure was bumpy in the first couple of years. I came to terms with our relationship and how I would tuck that sorrow away. He was a stupid boy and did stupid things, so did I. I forgave, did not forget. That kind of past needs to be my reminder to be that better person in life. It has been my fuel. Little reminders here and there put me in prospective that life cannot and will not be perfect.
I could not let one person keep me upset, so I did what I had to do and it was awful. I was nasty, rude, said horrible things that I knew would sting, just so she would leave me alone. I do not have to be friends with everyone. If I am nice they take advantage of me. Keep your friends close and your enemies closer...bull chit. My plan was to finally be gross and then that will be it. Or so I hope.
But a huge chunk of my ass was taken out last night! Holy crap did it hit the fan. Another secret surfaced out of the clear freakin' blue. My head is still spinning from that chit bomb. I do not know how to process that information. Do I tuck it away and use it a Diesel fuel? Or did water just put my fire out?
I feel so damaged. Just when the hurt doesn't feel quite that bad, I now feel that old wound. Thanks for throwing Salt in it Pete.
I don't want to go home. But I do want to crawl into my bed. 5 hours of sleep is not helping this situation. So here is my plan. I will go home and sleep and take tomorrow as another day. Ugg
Monday, November 15, 2010
Pouting
What a bummer of a day?! So much stress at work with the technology...Will they ever fix the computers? The tension is so thick with co-workers. If only people would listen.
The phone stalking from my very own dad is so upsetting and the call to Aunt Sharon was almost worse. Egged on to give up. That is all I have done lately is give up on people. My friends are distant. My extended family is gone. I am lonely. Grandparents are sick in age.
Daughter and boyfriend broke up and grandson is sad. Shilo...poor Shilo...we will see if momma and dad can work it out. I am backing down, but hard to be distant and present all in one. Can it be fixed? Why is it harder on me then her?
And last but not least...DAMN back. Tylenol is eating up my stomach so I am working on breathing techniques. Ya, ummm...several showers a day are better.
Looking at photos tonight actually helped. I will come to terms with myself very soon. Past is the past. Long ago, needs to be lost. Friends today have their own issues and not time to vent. But still I am pretty lonely. Who wants to listen or read this crap?
Maybe the thing that was visiting Saturday night. Let's call it, HE. HE was loud and messing with the microwave again. In the rafters and in the living room, it sounded. Quite annoying, but only woke me. The dogs were fast asleep. I know I was not asleep cause I got up to go to the bath room. HE stopped when I said enough, time for bed.
Not sad, not happy, just pouting.
The phone stalking from my very own dad is so upsetting and the call to Aunt Sharon was almost worse. Egged on to give up. That is all I have done lately is give up on people. My friends are distant. My extended family is gone. I am lonely. Grandparents are sick in age.
Daughter and boyfriend broke up and grandson is sad. Shilo...poor Shilo...we will see if momma and dad can work it out. I am backing down, but hard to be distant and present all in one. Can it be fixed? Why is it harder on me then her?
And last but not least...DAMN back. Tylenol is eating up my stomach so I am working on breathing techniques. Ya, ummm...several showers a day are better.
Looking at photos tonight actually helped. I will come to terms with myself very soon. Past is the past. Long ago, needs to be lost. Friends today have their own issues and not time to vent. But still I am pretty lonely. Who wants to listen or read this crap?
Maybe the thing that was visiting Saturday night. Let's call it, HE. HE was loud and messing with the microwave again. In the rafters and in the living room, it sounded. Quite annoying, but only woke me. The dogs were fast asleep. I know I was not asleep cause I got up to go to the bath room. HE stopped when I said enough, time for bed.
Not sad, not happy, just pouting.
Rellik to the 80's
I was a child of the 80's and a person could say I am stuck there. My daughter even loves the 80's...music, movies and some fashions.
As a preteen, I idol ed Michael...wanted the red jacket. My mom worked her magic and took me to Arrowhead Stadium to see him. I remember every detail.
I was actually saddened to hear he passed away. I got the call at Day Camp just after I heard the words roll out of Susan Hockers mouth, I was sitting at the picnic table eating lunch. I actually thought it was a rumor but it was true.
So, I love that they have released some of his work. And from what I hear from this song is that This will be a HUGE LABEL. Young and Old miss him. Even his weirdness...off to listen to the song again.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
The boys
Other then the really messy hair...I think my husband is handsome. I totally think he is hot when he cuddles with the pups.
Rellik and Pete have this really interesting habit. While Pete is watching tv, Rellik will hop up in his lap and sit straigh up in the crook of his arm to watch tv. Rellik really thinks he is human. Some days I agree.
These are two of my boys. I love my boys.
Rellik and Pete have this really interesting habit. While Pete is watching tv, Rellik will hop up in his lap and sit straigh up in the crook of his arm to watch tv. Rellik really thinks he is human. Some days I agree.These are two of my boys. I love my boys.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Halloween Traditions
Savannah, Jeff and Race car driver Jacob popped in on Halloween. 
Halloween, and any holiday I should admit, has changed for me. My girl is growing up so fast and I am loosing my grip on my holiday traditions. This year, we kept one tradition for Halloween and that was Chipotle. For many years we have gone to Chipotle at 5:30, stood in line with foil ears, or accessories, and ordered our BooRito. Up until this year, they were free. But I did not mind paying $2 this year. Good filling dinner before treats. And then we would go off to hit the streets for goodies. But not this year.
I was ready to let her go on her own. The "Boyfriend" and her had matching bee costumes to match the puppy. And then went around together. My neighbors had the garage door up, candy dishes out, a grill and an adult party going on. So, why not? I did the same. We pulled the fire pit to the front of the house, got out some chairs, candy, camera and had our very own Halloween gathering. Savannah brought over Jacob and they were some of the very few trick or treaters we had. Maybe a Search light in the sky next year will bring in more kids...lol.
With better planning for next year, I think we have a new tradition. My husband was very handsome in the glow of the campfire. I can eaisly get used to this.
Halloween, and any holiday I should admit, has changed for me. My girl is growing up so fast and I am loosing my grip on my holiday traditions. This year, we kept one tradition for Halloween and that was Chipotle. For many years we have gone to Chipotle at 5:30, stood in line with foil ears, or accessories, and ordered our BooRito. Up until this year, they were free. But I did not mind paying $2 this year. Good filling dinner before treats. And then we would go off to hit the streets for goodies. But not this year.I was ready to let her go on her own. The "Boyfriend" and her had matching bee costumes to match the puppy. And then went around together. My neighbors had the garage door up, candy dishes out, a grill and an adult party going on. So, why not? I did the same. We pulled the fire pit to the front of the house, got out some chairs, candy, camera and had our very own Halloween gathering. Savannah brought over Jacob and they were some of the very few trick or treaters we had. Maybe a Search light in the sky next year will bring in more kids...lol.
With better planning for next year, I think we have a new tradition. My husband was very handsome in the glow of the campfire. I can eaisly get used to this.
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